Ketones.

This morning was horrid, I woke up with a blood sugar at 23.3 and Ketones of the high variety.

This was due to my pump shutting down and failing to give me insulin, I don't know for how long this was happening as well but by the hight of my sugars it was quite a while.

The experience was not one that I wish to go though again any time soon, I felt sick all the time and I was sick at one point but because I had nothing to eat all I brought up was water and bile, which made my stomach pull and hurt. My mum was worried because I was upset and all I wanted to do was sleep. Which is very dangerous as I could have gone DKA which is very life threatening.

To resolve this situation I change the battery in my pump for a new one and had to give myself a lot of insulin, this was one of those occasions where I was saying to my mum "I wish I was normal" but with who I am this is normal for me and I can't change that.

The thing that saved my life today was my alarm clock because if I hadn't of hear "good morning it's the breakfast show on BBC Radio 1" I would not have woken up.

My sugars are coming down really nicely and are at 15 at this point in time. I know that this is still really high but I do not want to plummet where I go low.

Here are some things to remember if you go through this your self:
- always drink lots of water, to flush the Ketones out.
- keep very calm and do not panic.
- check your site to make sure you insulin has gone in.
- if you have injections make sure that the insulin is in date and the needle is a new one.
- before you start giving yourself insulin make sure you wash your hands and re test as you never know what could be on them.

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Remember you can always get me no matter the time, day or night.

Hypos... What happens to you?

This is more of a questions post more then anything because I want to know what happens to everyone when you go hypo.

I have recently found out that my symptoms have changed from what they used to be. I still have the usuals like burning up and shaking but in more recent days I have found that I am hungry all the time and my food is going quicker and I am not chewing as much as I should. The only think that gets chewed properly is my gums which really hurts and I have to go to the doctors for.

I want to know what happens to you when you go Hypo. You write a comment on here or if you think it's personal then email me it and I will not mention your name as some of them will be going in my next video.

My email is diabeticnick@gmail.com and remember I am all ears you can also reach me on twitter my user name is nick_taylor1.

Thank you and I am sorry it took so long for me to write.

Depression with Diabetes.

This is something that both me and my sister have been through with our diabetes and it is a natural part of been diabetic it is one of the disadvantages of having this condition. I do not mind though because it is something that I will grow out of and everyone who gets it will grow out of it as well.

It is something that we all go through and it comes on with the stresses and strains of Diabetes. It can also be caused by if you are having stresses of everyday life on top of everything else. I know that depression is a big word and can sometimes be scary to think about, so here is a list of the symptomes that is assosiated with Diabetes:

Persistent sadness or anxiety, a feeling of hollowness

An overriding feeling of hopelessness and negativity

Feeling helpless and powerless to change your situation

Loss of interest in activities or pleasures

Lower energy and increased fatigue

Insomnia, oversleeping, awakening early in the morning

Concentration problems, memory problems and indecisiveness

Dwelling on death or suicide

Restlessness

Weight change and decreased or increased appetite

(http://www.diabetes.co.uk/diabetes-and-depression.html) I have put this here so that you can have a look everything.

I am still going though this and I have the stages where I feel amazing and I feel really good and then something happenes, like someone says something to me of I look in the mirror and I hate my self but when I talk to someone about it they say that is normal. But I don't think it is and I don't think that anyone should do it alone. If you need someone to talk to I have my usual contact details and I am happy to help.

I would like to take this oppertunity to say sorry, my blog is not as good as what it usually is because I have been very very ill and am getting better but I am not quite there yet.

Dealing with nasty people with good friends.

It has been a while since I last wrote, that is because I am getting ready to go to University and I am stoked. Anyway this post today is about an event that happened a few weeks back with a woman on the bus and what she said to which I am not going to lie, hurt more then having my teeth out but I got through it with my amazing friends.

What happened was that I was waiting for my bus as I usually do on a Wednesday morning on my way to college, when an elderly woman said to me that I could get on the bus before her as she was waiting for the 9:30am. I said "Thank you but I am wait for that one as well" in reply she said this "Why what have you got?" whilst saying this she looked me up and down. I decided to stand tall and say in a polite manner and say "I have Diabetes and Neuropathy of my legs" I was smiling because I am proud of having this.

What happened next was out of my control...

The elderly woman started to shake her head in disgust at me and said in a very angrily tone and said "what is this world coming to if teenagers have to steal and lie." She turned and turned back and said "well even if you have you don't look like it." It was these 10 words that ripped my heart out because it was the thought that if one person thinks what do the rest think of me the lier. I knew I wasn't lieing and I didn't know what to say I just lowered my head and carried on I never said a word to the woman but I wish that I had now.

I put what happened on Facebook and the mass response that I received was amazing my friends had my back and even people who didn't read it heard about it and gave me support. You see with everyone there for me it made me realise that that woman is one person with an opinion that yes other people may have but the people who's opinions that I care about are the people that I care about myself: my friends, my family and my boyfriend. they are the only people that matter to me know.

I want to thank my mum because I rang her after I got off the bus, it was the first time that she said that the next time I see this woman I was to tell my mum and she will say something to her because it is uncalled for.

If you have a story like mine even if you don't have the same condition as me please do tell me, just so you can have a hug from me like I say "a hug can't stop a war but it can stop the tears"

Meeting new people.

It has been a while since I have wrote on here and I have been up to quite a lot that I am very proud of and some that I'm not so proud of. But as I have learnt over that past few weeks you can't change what has already been done.

To start off with, I went to a meeting with a bunch of Diabetics and it was amazing for the first time in a long time I was in a room where I felt so comfortable. I could get out my Blood Glucose monitor and do my sugars and feel that I didn't have to be embarrassed about it. I am doing a lot better about doing my sugars in front of people even my friends. I have also learnt to ignore people when they say things to me no matter how hurtful they may be. As long as you have friends around you and your family that is all that matters as they will never leave you.

It is important that you have people around you that you feel like you can go to even if it is your neighbours sisters cat... OK that might be a little far fetched but you get the idea. Once you have some one you can go to in your times of need or if you just need to have a friendly chat you need someone there. I have gone through the majority of my Diabetic life alone and that was a struggle and it was hard and it is something that I would not want anyone to do alone. Something that I have to stress though is that I am not alone anymore I have a family around me even if I don't live with them and I have awesome friends who I love to pieces.

I might not have the life that other people may have like been able to go out and get drunk or am able to go to my boyfriends (not that I have one) when even I want or do a lot of physical exercise, things like this for me take a lot of planning but do you know what I wouldn't change it even if I was given the chance to because I love my life, yes I have my ups and downs with it but who doesn't.

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Hating your diabetes.

This is an odd one for me to talk about today, as its something that said out loud for the first time yesterday. I was sat in the hospital with my nurse, the other day, who has been with me through thick and thin, when she asked me "Do you hate the pump?" I started to get upset and just came out with "no I hate my diabetes" the look of pure shock on her face.

The thing is I hate it because no matter how well I try and no matter how good I think I'm doing it is still wrong and I always get shot down for it, they will come out with things like "your doing good but there is still room for improvement" I'm sick of hearing that said to me, its not like I want them to show me with praise, I would just like for once to not shoot me down.

I also hate it because I feel so alone, I have people saying tome that they understand but they don't not really. I was having lunch with my friends at college on Wednesday and one of them said something to me, which mad me think. It made me think on how people look at me (I'm not meaning anything bad C***) I mean like people who meet me for the first time, or are just starting to get to know me. It's like people who treat me differently I don't like it. I want to be treat just like a "normal" person.

I have decided to seek out help so that I don't feel alone any more. I have been invited to a meeting in Leeds which I am going to, so that I can meet people like me.

I would like to take this opportunity to say thank you to my friends who although we have spats you are all still there for me and I love you all for that, you guys are my rocks. Don't know what I would do without you.

This has been a hard one for me this time, and I hope that you understand that although I am saying these things and I am feeling the way that I do. I wouldn't change who I am, maybe just how I look at myself.

N

Trust in People.

Hi everyone, I am starting off today by saying sorry to people who I may have offended last week, I was getting stressed so much and I needed to vent about what has been going on in my life, I know that people talk to other people "normally" but I use this to get my anger out and it did relate to my diabetes. If anyone wants to tell me what they think please feel free.

Now to go to what I am talking about this week. You have to put trust in people whether it be your family or it be new people that have come into your life either as friends or family. The people I put my trust in last night were my new family. I don't remember a bit of what happened and other bits are still fuzzy.

I had been messing around with my step brother Chis, like families do but I started to feel myself going Hypo so I got up and sat on the sofa and checked my levels, they were 3.7 so I went to the kitchen and got out my Lucozade and had 150ml. I know this is too much but a lately it has been taking a lot more to bring me up. I waited the standard 10 minuets to see if it took affect (whilst doing all this I told my step mum what I was).

When I checked it again it had not gone up but it had dropped to 2.8, by this time we were worried but not enough to strap me to a stretcher and take me away, so yet again I had some more Lucozade it was about another 20ml and again we waited. By this time I was very cold and I was shaking so Chris worried to heat me up to stop the shaking he sat with me and just hugged me.

Sharon by this time was so worried I wasn't making sense because I had dropped to 2.7, so she did the only thing she could think of she rang my sister Antoinette for help, as my dad was at work. So Antoinette told her to give me two slices of bread and more Lucozade in a glass this time so I can gulp it down. We waited in anticipation to see if I would come up and sure enough I came up to 4.9. I could feel my self getting warmer and the numbness in my head had gone.

We then spent the rest of the night going through what happens if I collapse, which I will be doing for my video blog soon I just have to find a camera man.

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