Hello everyone this is just a quick post, whilst I am on my way to college on the bus. It is about my second trip to the hospital about my diabetes, it was again that my nurse told me that yes granted I have been doing much better and my HbA1C was improving, but it is the matter that I am not doing enough tests. I did question my nurse about this because I honestly thought I was doing enough but looks like it still wasn't enough.
And for a few days after I was done I did do a lot more tests and I quite enjoyed it but then the day came when I needed to do it on the bus and this woman was staring at me shaking her head. Now this really hurt because my feelings about people were getting better on what I thought people thought of me and I started not to care again because "this is me" and I can't let people get to me. I have to admit this has set me back quite a bit but I'm hoping that I can get through this.
I am aware this may seem small to some people, but I don't think that people realise what a big impact what they do makes, now I could understand if it was a child doing it because they might not understand but an adult could ask.
I realise that I think I have gone of track a bit. Going back to the hospital my dad went with and my nurse said that it was nice to see him, and it is nice because he seems to want to help as much as he can. My dad has a new family now and they have taken me and my illness in with them and they are interested with it and again they want to help.
I think to over come these fears I am going to have to say that I don't care what people do or think because I can't help who I am and well if they don't like it well that's their problem, I hoping with the help of my friends and family I can get back on track, because you only get one shot at this and that's all.
Please leave a comment and if you have gone through something similar please tell me at diabeticnick@gmail.com because I'm all ears so to speak.
